Got Milk?

Today is the third day since I last breastfed Lavigne. It had been quite a smooth transition, so far. Everytime it's bedtime, she'd ask for nen nen but I'd tell her no more nen nen for her anymore because she's a big girl now. Sometimes she'd cry and fuss, other times she'd stop asking for it. I'd pat her to sleep or sing to her and pretend to sleep beside her. There was once she took almost one hour before falling asleep...other times just 10-15min.

Last night the engorgement was so bad I had to express some milk out manually. My breasts had become rock solid and I couldn't even carry Lavigne. Even Louisa commented that they looked big! My tops were 2 inches shorter when I wore them due to the enlargement of the mammaries. I sat in the bathtub after dinner to express. I had a laugh at myself as I felt like a cow. Hahahahah! Felt so much better after that though I didn't empty the breasts and they were still heavy. Ma, you repeatedly asked me if the old cow still has milk? Well, the above pic is for you.

It took me one week to wean Louisa. She'd wake the old neighbourhood with her cries at night. Adrian and I were so sleep deprived. She'd cry and cry non-stop for hours. During the day, I'd draw lines on my breasts with my eyeliner as she was afraid of anything black. She was put off and could only cry in desperation. Lavigne, on the other hand, is easier to handle. She's been weaned off the night feeds since 14mth so it makes things even easier.

I felt quite sad after I stopped breastfeeding Louisa. It was as if there was something missing. I missed the closeness but I was glad that she finally slept through the night after I had interrupted sleep for 18months since she was born. Surprisingly, I don't feel quite as sad to wean Lavigne. Not sure why though. I guess it's really time and she's getting a tad too long for me to feed her comfortably. I watched a TV program on extended breastfeeding some months back. There are mothers who are still breastfeeding their children who are 8!!!! Hats off to them. By many's standard, I should have stopped ages ago. I chose to continue till now and can't imagine myself breastfeeding Lavigne in her primary school uniform.