Away to La-la-land

Only one day into my trip in Singapore, I'd been made to feel guilty for not meeting up with people. I think this is totally unfair. I'd wanted this trip to be as fuss-free as possible, to be a relaxing break and to get away from the hustle-bustle of UK life, a chance for me to review my life. Of course there are many friends and family to meet up with, given the fact that we live in a distant country and come back perhaps only once a year. We are all still trying to get over the jetlag, trying to adjust to the drastic change in temperature and this has to happen.....less than 24 hours since touching down. I thought I could choose who I want to meet and when. I will eventually meet all the people I want to meet and have to meet but just in my own time. Apparently not! Why come back and be put in this kind of position? Will we be better off if we didn't come back. I knew it will happen, just not this soon. It had been a turbulent year. I thought coming back here will enable me to put certain things in perspective, let me recharge and renew for the coming crucial year ahead. I simply dislike all the power struggle. Can you imagine the stress? I wish people can be more understanding, on the other hand, they may wish I be the one. Plans do change. If it wasn't for the girls, we'd not gone out at all today. I remembered reading from Mel's blog about all the Holiday Shows and quickly made a check and found out that the Disney Princesses Pageant's last 2 shows are on this weekend. (Can't make it tomorrow as we have a birthday party to attend). So I brought them to Compass Point in the afternoon just for them to see the 'show' and take pictures with them and due to some unforseen circumstances, we ate dinner out. Is it an obligation for me to think of every single person I know when I plan my own family activities and make sure all are satisfied and pleased? I don't think this is realistic and possible. Many a time, I bring the girls out on a whim without any prior plan or intention. To be constantly whispered at behind my back is torturous. Then again, we can't control what other people do and say, can we? If you want to do it, do it discreetly and don't let me get wind of it.

Sometimes I just wish that I can disappear somewhere with the girls. Somewhere in La-la-land. However, I can't be an idealist or fantasist and have to be realistic and live in the real world. Already, I foresee many more unhappy incidents to unfold. Watch this space.